Weasel Sauce

bad dog

2008-12-31T03:00:00.000-05:00

If i was on someone's porch with them talking and it was cold outside, i wouldnt ask if we could go inside because i would think it is rude, though i feel stupid when i think about it for thinking that it is rude. why? why do i do this? why am i so afriad of being rude? why am i so afriad of leaving a negative impression (when i know it won't)? why cant i just do what i want and say what i feel? why am i affraid to bear my own thoughts?

my brother is on the other side of extremes. he is completely uninhibited and he thinks clearly. i think in circles telling myself not to think about things that seem obscene or vulgar or offensive, and it kills me. i want to think about what i want to think about. why wont i let myself be myself? autothoughtpolice. selfmindblock. i cant think for tripping over "morality" and other such nonsense. how has this become indoctrinated within me? who let this happen? did anyone forsee the consequences? COULD anyone forsee it? in the past year i feel that i have lost myself. im almost a completely different person. what am i?

bad dog, peeing in public is not politically correct.

Today was good.

2008-11-14T17:11:00.002-05:00

I didn't post for 2 days because my mom locked the computer because my brother stumbled upon the 18+ boards on 4chan, and he reported the occurrence himself, so no reprimand was due him. The morning after this aim convo, what Rafael said happened.

[20:19] Skyler: hows school?
[20:20] Rafael: shitty
[20:20] Skyler: why so?
[20:23] Rafael: people
[20:23] Rafael: i dont like most of them
[20:24] Skyler: what are you doing now? inb4 talking to me
[20:25] Rafael: i'm sitting at the library
[20:25] Rafael: away from said people
[20:26] Skyler: its what i did today too.
[20:35] Skyler: what kind of people do you like?
[20:36] Rafael: i like people who: have some misanthropy, do new things, dont care about rules, that i can talk to without being bored
[20:36] Rafael: and probably other stuff
[20:36] Rafael: that i cant think of
[20:54] Skyler: i feel lucky to get to talk to you.
[20:55] Rafael: damn, that sucks
[20:56] Skyler: lol, how?
[20:56] Skyler: that i cant find anyone?
[20:56] Skyler: or wont, really.
[20:57] Rafael: that no one has found you
[21:00] Rafael: they will
[21:00] Rafael: i gtg
[21:00] Rafael: cya later

I found someone who is kinda like me. more on that later.

some good music:
http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/183609
http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/186146
http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/168228
http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/169229

Homework

2008-11-11T17:03:00.002-05:00

I have to write 76 sentences in Spanish using words provided. I'm glad I took notes today. And I gotta find 10 color pictures for art class. I hope she will let me use the selection I bring, it'll probably be macabre scenes of gore and intensely gruesome and shocking phenomena. Maybe she will allow me to draw something I'm actually interested in drawing this time around.
Time for squid-teeth.

And Chase is sick, he got to stay home today.

nothing happened today.

2008-11-10T18:09:00.002-05:00

So here's a long cat.

wow

2008-11-09T21:13:00.002-05:00

I forgot i had a blog for a while. i hope to dust it off and update regularly from now on.

My laptop was taken away a few months ago. I'm trying to get it back or buy a new one, meanwhile school just drags on trying to teach me things that i don't want to learn.

well

2008-04-07T20:05:00.000-04:00

not much has happened recently. brad is getting back surgery. im looking 4 a job.

free energy on the way.

2008-03-29T14:40:00.000-04:00

i will start saving now. :)

I am back

2008-03-25T14:34:00.001-04:00

ungrounded after a year of groundedness, i can now update my blogz on a regular basis.
my future posts will include bits of information on varying subjects like new technology, the status of Iraq, news, howtos, etc.